tremors

The leftover coffee trembles and trembles
Up and down the white china and makes
Brown, ugly runs on the cup's insides.

What is there to say, except that we are
Permanently broken
A rupture in time and luck and
A series of small missteps
Has made what cannot be unmade.
And I tremble and tremble.
With the abandoned coffee, knowing
A small piece of my brain has
Dimmed its lights.

Recite to me, all of our carefully gathered lines
And inside jokes,
One more time.
If only to hear the new emptiness that fills them.
Your forearm muscles tense, tense, release
Like a rhythmic waltz
And I crave to stroke it away.
But I think that would be the wrong thing to do
So without quite knowing why, I keep my fingers in each other,
Letting them become as cold as the coffee
Whose grounds have already separated from the liquid
And seeped to the bottom of the cup.
As we tremble and tremble.

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