vaccination

You are so frustrating, it’s terrible. I hate to come back to the same word over and over again but it's enraging.

You can't ever fall for someone harder than they for you. These were the pearls that flowed from my fingertips last night. Except he disagreed with me, and I secretly agreed with him. No matter how good some pieces of advice sound, they remain drifting from one ear to the next, because simply, we are not willing to internalize any of it.

Take right now. Always a classic case. It will probably turn out to be the same road I went down last fall, except it’s barely summer. The asymmetry is aesthetically unpleasing to me. But the rest I can handle. A cold needle prickle is always easier the second time around. Maybe this time I'll rub on the alcohol a little earlier. Feel the odd cooling sensation a little sooner before something foreign penetrates. Sterile. It's that image again. I wonder if my unwillingness to internalize will transfer here. Maybe the vaccine won't work. Maybe you won't work. Maybe I caught you just in time. Or maybe that's just wishful thinking.

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