gamble

Congratulations 11/11/09, you go down as the day that's second most detrimental to my self-esteem at UChicago.

I'm not even sure why I care this much. Is it simply a matter of pride? Or do I really believe I deserve better?

Ultimately, who's a better judge for what you deserve anyway? It seems that, when it comes to either them or you, there are these huge, gaping holes that blind the decider. How can anything be made right? Do you just put on a blindfold, spin around three times, and hope the dart hits somewhere close to the bull's eye?

It seems too big a trust, especially when the stakes are such a part of you.

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