spinning fibers

Strands are spun
Tangled and sticky
I can't see past the
Grotesque and clingy fibers
That never quite leave
The fabric of my new black jeans

Men lurch themselves away
From the bar
Splashing beer on to the next
So it goes
The domino effect
Elsewhere people are repeating
Units of conversation
Spouting white strings
Of their doings for a living and
Where they are from

And so,
In the final hour of potentiality
We congregate and spin
Trying to avoid
Fragmenting too much of ourselves.

**

hunt

After a clinical exchange, I have realized that I am, yet again, playing by myself. We always enjoy the chase, so much so we forget sometimes how exhausting it feels once we're forced to stop. Now that the prey has disappeared, I feel like perhaps it was a phantom all along -- a spot of sunshine peeking through the branches rather than a quick motion of something alive. As I pluck my arrows from tree barks, my hunger makes another growl at me. I wish I can shoot my desires instead. The thing about desire is, we are free to pursue whatever we want, but we are not free to choose what we want. It's one more blunted arrow tip later, and I'm just tired, and wish I can stave off becoming famished for another day. I wish we weren't this needy. The pathetic beggary of humanity. I wish I can become unchained from it.

**